& you got no one to talk too right now and only thing you could do is just fake a smile and being happy in front of others. Its hard to be strong of every single shit in life. Its tiring seeing yourself being hurt again and again. And the feeling you just wanna end your life and make the people relies that you are not invisible and by the time they regret everything they done.. Sometime its just that is what I wish for just die and make people relies all their shit and come back alive. Problem after problem, and I relies my 2011 just sucks. From the first starting of the fucking year till now I'm freaking suffering. I'm strong in the day, But behide this fake smile and during at night lock inside my room and just cry myself. I dont know how long I can stand this.