The almost 2 year relationship and other one the most fun to be relationship.

I know its hard to move on with all the memories we had in the almost 2 years relationship.

But whats the use of regretting and crying over the past when you know things can be back like last time. You already moved on and I'm still here.

& the most fun to be relationship.

Our relationship is different then others. We ain't no couples like serious.

We always scold each other bad words, pay fights with each other. We always have this small bets with each other. But we still love each other.

We never get bored with each other. We always have somethings to do. Even the little privacy times we make things exciting by betting with one another. We were so happy having each other in our life. But something have to destroy everything apart. I can't stop it, Neither do him. We had no choice to leave each other and now we're back to strangers. It sucks. I miss him.

Its been months I last saw him.

Guy F is going to serve his NS soon. Sign on CD. alhamdulliah.

I pray for him for his happy life and find his dream girl soon. Amin.

as for guy A, I guess still searching for his dream girl or just busy with his mixing.

same for him, I pray a bright future too. Amin.

As for me, I'm serving my karma. Standing strong but inside I'm dying for all this shit.

Finding the guy of my dream but end up with guys taking advantage of me. On repeat.

I hate to say this but I'm getting tired of guys. I don't want to declare myself as a bisexual.

No, Not now. But soon. Oh well, I just wait for Allah to lead me where he wants me to go then.

Signing out, Zielaa.

I've learned ever single shit of mistake after I left you. I realize your the guy I wished for on a wishing star I saw that night (I'm not gonna name that place and which day)

I wished for a guy who can take good care of me, scarifies whatever shit for me & finally Allah has given you to me. But I simply waste my wish on that someone. I really regret it. Now I relies how much you mean to me. I know its too late. "Nasi dah jadi bubur" so call? But if I have one wish that sure will be granted. I will wish for you to come back like used to be. Back in my arms. When I saw couples pictures, especially when they when to Universal Studio, I suddenly think of you and cry. I still remember we promised each other to go USS together & take lots of pictures but "tak kesampaian" I know you already moved on, I am still here serving my karma, Suffering, Hurting. I know I deserve it. Lastly, I miss ibu, I miss your dad, your sister and everyone in your family. If I were to confess to you all this or simply show this to you. Will you accept me back?

Sincerely, Ziela.