I almost gave up.
Right now, I'm hoping you will change.
I've been patience for this 1 month.
I guess if other girls were in my shoes right now, I don't know how things will go on. But I'm still here. Staying strong in our relationship. Forgiving the mistakes you have done. But hardly forget.
To be continue
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Confession. Lonely. Love.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
The words I’m saying right now, I don’t know if they’ll hurt you
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am
I must not be worthy of this thing called love
We don't really contact that much, we don't really meet each other like all the happy couples.
When I'm out with my girlfriends or going home alone.
I tend to stare at happy couples inside the train/bus. Holding each other hands, forehead kisses, hugs. Sometimes seeing all this makes me sad. Although I have a wonderful boyfriend in my life. I can't spend so much time with him. Sooner or later, He's going for his national service and I know life's gonna be fucked up for me. I have to understand if he can't meet me when he start his ns. But I dont want things to change between us, Eventho right now I can see somethings started to change. I try to be okay with it. I just need you to equal you time with me and the other things in your life. Thats all I ever wanted from you.
I don't get to contact him every time when I need him.
And that is the most difficult part. We always contact by Whatsapp and facebook.
No night phone calls, No morning message, No goodnight message. But all that doesnt matter to me. I need to understand. And I understand his situation right now. I have no problem with this.
But sometimes, seeing my girlfriends texting or on the phone with their boyfriend in front of me really makes me feel empty.
But baby, Its okay.
As long as I'm yours. I will still be strong and fight this awful feeling.
I will still be with you as long as you want me to be.
Even when you're not by my side always, You're always be in my heart and my mind.
Sorry if I'm not being a perfect girlfriend, Sorry if I'm being so emotional over this. Or maybe everything. Sorry if this hurt you. But I really don't want you to leave me. & I know I wont leave you. You're the type of guy I always wanted. You're funny, sometimes crazy, loving, caring, fun to be with, loves shopping, loves food just like me and we even like/interested the same things sometimes. You always have this random facts about everything that I didnt know. I just love everything about you. I mean every single thing. And please baby, I love you the way you are.
I apologies if sometimes I overthink, overreact over something, Jealous over some of you friends and being like this every night.
Sorry if Im not being a perfect girlfriend of yours, But I will promise you one thing, I'll try my very best to love you right which other girls/ex's fail to do so.
I love you S.
`Your girlfriend.
love
Monday, November 14, 2011
I think I've meet my Mr. Right.
There's this guy name Syuqrie, With his charming self he wins my heart just like that.
He's a guy from my Secondary school. An Express student, one year older. So called my senior. The guy who carries a handbag to school. HAHAHAHAHHA! ok i die if he reading this.
He's WAS a one arrogant guy I must say in secondary school. No offense baby if you're reading this. LOL ! I mean like seriously, We in the same school like 3/4 years, we sometime passby each other on the hall way outside class but for once he didn't even say hi or just simply talk. And yes, I always saw him playing soccer in school. At that part of time I got no interest with him. Never thought will fall for him in future or something like this.AND THIS ONE PATHETIC PART which I just get to know that we were in the same batch when I was sec 4. And I did notice him as he always late for school, doing push ups. LOL. And he was slimmer that time. Zaman chicks all tengah aiming. hmmm hmmm. I think that was one of his reasons la for not being friendly with me. I know, When I was sec 4, I was one kental minah. I KNOW. Not only sec 4 la. THROUGH OUT MY SECONDARY LIFE. I chill chill low profile girl in school. So yeah ;)
Back to my story, Its all started with Formspring.
He send me by anon and first telling me that he has a sudden crush on me.
So I thought this is one of the prank that people always spam on formspring.
But actually it was not. I shall not explain more. Let the picture tell the story.
So precisely, The last question he send me, He forgotten to anon his self. HOW CUTE IT THAT.
HAHAHA! But when ever I switch on my laptop, I'll check my facebook first rather checking anything else. So I log in my facebook and saw a message. When I click on it and read it I was lost and after that I check my Formspring then I get it.
After chatting and knowing each other. He suddenly.
Even tho things happen so soon. I never regret accepting me as my boyfriend.
He's loving.
He's caring.
He's clever plus weird sometimes.
And he's all I ever wanted in my life.
And we're so comfortable around each other.
The best thing about him, he never fails to make me happy.
And the things he say really touched me.
Just to let you know okay baby.
I wont leave you. I promise.
We go through life together thick and thin.
No matter how hard the situation in our relationship is
I will still be with you. But I need to make an effort too.
I really hope you mean your words. I know you're different.
Like you always say. I wont break you, If you wont break me.
I love you, Syuqrie <3
