We don't really contact that much, we don't really meet each other like all the happy couples.

When I'm out with my girlfriends or going home alone.

I tend to stare at happy couples inside the train/bus. Holding each other hands, forehead kisses, hugs. Sometimes seeing all this makes me sad. Although I have a wonderful boyfriend in my life. I can't spend so much time with him. Sooner or later, He's going for his national service and I know life's gonna be fucked up for me. I have to understand if he can't meet me when he start his ns. But I dont want things to change between us, Eventho right now I can see somethings started to change. I try to be okay with it. I just need you to equal you time with me and the other things in your life. Thats all I ever wanted from you.

I don't get to contact him every time when I need him.

And that is the most difficult part. We always contact by Whatsapp and facebook.

No night phone calls, No morning message, No goodnight message. But all that doesnt matter to me. I need to understand. And I understand his situation right now. I have no problem with this.

But sometimes, seeing my girlfriends texting or on the phone with their boyfriend in front of me really makes me feel empty.

But baby, Its okay.

As long as I'm yours. I will still be strong and fight this awful feeling.

I will still be with you as long as you want me to be.

Even when you're not by my side always, You're always be in my heart and my mind.

Sorry if I'm not being a perfect girlfriend, Sorry if I'm being so emotional over this. Or maybe everything. Sorry if this hurt you. But I really don't want you to leave me. & I know I wont leave you. You're the type of guy I always wanted. You're funny, sometimes crazy, loving, caring, fun to be with, loves shopping, loves food just like me and we even like/interested the same things sometimes. You always have this random facts about everything that I didnt know. I just love everything about you. I mean every single thing. And please baby, I love you the way you are.

I apologies if sometimes I overthink, overreact over something, Jealous over some of you friends and being like this every night.

Sorry if Im not being a perfect girlfriend of yours, But I will promise you one thing, I'll try my very best to love you right which other girls/ex's fail to do so.

I love you S.

`Your girlfriend.