Ive crying every night. Ive been having to much stress. Studies, Licenses, Grandpa in hospital, Relationships. When will everything gonna end? My studies has drop. Ive not been doing well in school, common test. Ftt is near another 6 more days and I cant even get anything in my head. Grandpa has admitted in the hospital on Thursday, 26 July 12. His blood is low. And he has internal bleeding. And lastly, Relationship. Things between me and boyf is not going well.. Been arguing. And I cant take it anymore. I want to leave but I love him to much to let him go. For the first time ever a guy scold me vulgarity ad much as he did today, Do you know how it feels when the one person who you really love hurt you so bad by their own words. Yes, thats what i feel right now. Maybe I deserve all this? Maybe What i did in the past comes back to me. its okay. Ill stay until I cant take it anymore. Slowly. I tell myself that I have to take one step at a time.